U N M A T C H

U N M A T C H

Not me nor you or you or you or you or you, 

Not the thing and that

Not the summer and the rain

Not the sound and the silent

Not the daylight or the nightime

It’s the air, no longer there

The love, no longer there

The hope, no longer there

The soul, no longer here

But the life, that still here

I scream yet no one hear

Because it’s not you and you nor you or you or you or you or you

Not the black or the white 

Not the past or the future or the last?

I’ve been driving this endless road without company 

Company oh company i want company, no i don’t want company no
I've been living this shit through the pattern

The pattern, yes the pattern, the pattern, the pattern
I've been tired with all of these pattern

It’s me, me me me and me not you nor you or you or you or you, 

Crawling for myself to be release from you

-myclairdeluney-

Out of Reach

Out of Reach, 

But I Was There

I saw it, sillhouet

It was madness

As far as i follow

Couldn't even touch the shadow

He made me full of river

So wet and salty

I lick it and i don't like it

Drops by drops from my lips

Trust me, it's not about the dirty thing

-myclairdeluney-

New Light

New Light

Forgive me, My Lune

I think i fall in love with the sun

He wipes away the chaos that i got since you're gone

He makes my body feels warm 

His strong hands, held me so tight dont wanna let go

He makes my world stop spinning

Only one glince of his eyes

Untoxicated, i think he got me under his spells

-myclairdelune-

The Way He Makes Me Feel

The Way He Makes Me Feel

💮

I miss the way someone makes me bloom

 Like i'm the one of a kind flower in the garden of heaven,

 While from in time i'm feeling myself kinda like a mimosa flower,
Not too interesting but curious to touch

But one day, everything changes
Once upon a time, a prince with his white horse said something so pure
 ''Look up princess, head up, even though there's so many beautiful things in this earth, 

You are the view''

-myclairdelune-

The Story About The Wolf #2(Finale)

The Dead of The Wolf 

(Beauty And The Beast)

I clawed your back, made you moan

You clawed my back, made me bleed

Oh you sneaky peeky tiny little wolf

Betray me, eat whoever you see

You wanting me to sacrifice everything,

While you feeding me with rotten lies.

I'm just trying to be a good lover tho,

While you just trying to be a better liar.

Your wild eyes always get busy on the street

Looking for fresh meat, old meat, all you can eat

When you finished with empty loaded, you gonna come home to see me

Kiss me and say ''i love u so much baby''

You thought you playin but dont forget about the player 2 

I play pretend like you're the only one but you'll never be the one

Do me, kiss me, but i never tasted yours

It's always the moon that i imagine on top of mine

Because with you, honestly it never tasted that good

The wolf and i never been satisfied with each other

He thirsty for some prey and i keep craving for the moon

I'm walking away with disgust and ashamed because of the wolf

Such a wasted season that i've been through but lesson learned

So i think this is the end of the road for me and the wolf for sure

We're seperated between cliffs somewhere only we know

-myclairdelune-

Pardon, what's your name again?

Pardon, what's your name again?

🤵🎩

I'll be sittin on the table eight

Drinkin my cafè au lait

 With tight skirt and peachy lips

Guess the one you wondering to take a sip

I'll let you look if you pretend not looking

I'll let you touch if you wise enough not touching

Come closer let me give you a hint

If you can solve my riddle, oh maybe you can win

Stranger, danger

Let's play cause im hunger

My scents on your neck linger

Dont be shy, let me pull the trigger

 

See, i like a man with manners

Both saint and the sinner

And i'll make you like the good girl

Both sincere and the tempter

-myclairdelune-

Goner

Goner

🌃

I need my own space

Just me and the bottle of wine

In my favorite sofa

Looking out the window and see thousand stars with the sounds of busy world

I dont see much peace outside

It makes me uncomfortable too

People, places, noises

Just too much for a loner like me

It is heavy

To wear a big smile on the street

With many people passing by

But dont get me wrong,

It is heavy when you are born with humbleness 

While you carrying the weight of the heavy world on your shoulder

I dont do cry thing

Even tho it really shake me

Hit me like hell

Cut me deeply

Messing with my own thought

What i do is to close my eyes

And take a deep breath

Focus, just focus

Allowing myself to fade

Disappearing from the world when the moon is on it’s highest

Into my design of space

Where the time and memmories stop, just for a sec

I know it doesnt make the pain all go away

But to be in my own galaxy

Enough is ever enough

I am whole

I am happy

-mylairdelune-

The Story About The Wolf #1

How Do I Met The Wolf?
(While i'm still feeling the moon)

 🐺

I met one wolf in my lonely night longing for the moon.

I'm drifting in the swift of the river with my hands open, wish i could feel my clair de lune

But this one wolf followed me for long enough, sees me with his glare,

i knew he sees me as his prey.

He pulled me to the edge with his paw

He ripped my shirt with his claw

By that time i knew i'd better be drown.

He was the beast, but i'm the one who get into the pound

Unconcious, i think i'm dreaming in deep.

He kiss me in the neck then my lips.

He is so hungry, He can not stop.

And I am so empty..., I can not stop.

Imagine myself flying against gravity. All that I can feel is the kiss of the moon.

It reaches me by its moonbeam, and whisper ''i'll see u soon''

I'm awake being sad,

Not because the wolf is already full and gonna leave me dead

I always sad when im awake,

When my dream is over, the moon is gone and it always leaves me ache

I am wolf favorites prey i guess

Because the wolf doesn't leave me dead.

But he embrace me instead,

While his fang is grinning behind my back

I am in between hollow and lust

Wanting to go but i'm trap in the moon past

Lonely heart, gloomy soul

I shall stay and make him howl.

-myclairdelune-

''Baby, Are You There?''

''Baby, Are You There?''
💏

On the rooftop at my house, i was lying on his thigh and enjoying our quality time

the weather was nice that day. The cloud was swimming in the very blue sky. So pretty.

‘’and so do you’’, he said

 

I remember that time, he smiled at me while playing my hair. That’s the sweetest smile i ‘ve ever seen. And for the love of god creatures, his brown eyes always got me stunned.

‘’where do  u see yourself in 10 years from now?’’ i asked him randomly

He looked up trying to catch vision. ‘’hmmm probably wake up with u in my bed,and... hmm morning sex?’’ he replied and rising his eyebrow in attempt to try his luck. I get up from his thigh and pinched his arm really hard. He always knows how to annoyed me. That's silly of him.

 

‘’ouc babe hurtt!  but seriously, i see myself wake up with u in my bed, make love with u in the morning,then prepare my suitcase while u cooking me breakfast, and everyday before i go to work i always have to kiss u on the forehead..’’ he said it in one line without catching a breath. It’s kinda funny tho to made him imagining things like that but he made me blush anyway.

‘’and what would i do when u go to work? I must be lonely’’ i asked him sadly

He looked at me smiling and started to touch my cheeks

‘’Take your time babygirl, do whatever makes u happy. I dont want to put you in the cage. You are really free to fly baby, but makes sure to comback to me. I want you to wait for me... in our little home and  in everynight i’m gonna kiss your lips under the stars.’’ he said that like he knew what he was doing. He gave me hope. Hope to have each other for a long time. His words made me wanna dive in him deeper and deeper.

I remember i closed my eyes trying to feel his touch. It gave me shiver all over my neck. And as soon as i open my eyes, i find myself lying on the rooftop still but it’s not the very blue sky with clouds that i see, it’s the sky with so many stars, so pretty.

‘’and so do you’’, i whispered softly, head up to the sky searching for the moon. Hope that he can feel me somehow. 
Reminiscing, always feels trembling. But he wants me to wait for him. I sit still on the same spot when we have our first kiss just in case he find himself hard to find me.

So tell me now baby are you there? Because i cannot see you everywhere,  it’s just me, the stars and the dust.If it’s not today, i’ll stay everyday. I really miss the warmth of yours. I feel so empty everynight waiting for your embrace. I am so fucking lost i dont know where else to go. So Everynight i go up into my rooftop just to wait for his kiss. A Goodnight kiss from the moon.

-myclairdelune-