Goner

Goner

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I need my own space

Just me and the bottle of wine

In my favorite sofa

Looking out the window and see thousand stars with the sounds of busy world

I dont see much peace outside

It makes me uncomfortable too

People, places, noises

Just too much for a loner like me

It is heavy

To wear a big smile on the street

With many people passing by

But dont get me wrong,

It is heavy when you are born with humbleness 

While you carrying the weight of the heavy world on your shoulder

I dont do cry thing

Even tho it really shake me

Hit me like hell

Cut me deeply

Messing with my own thought

What i do is to close my eyes

And take a deep breath

Focus, just focus

Allowing myself to fade

Disappearing from the world when the moon is on it’s highest

Into my design of space

Where the time and memmories stop, just for a sec

I know it doesnt make the pain all go away

But to be in my own galaxy

Enough is ever enough

I am whole

I am happy

-mylairdelune-

The Story About The Wolf #1

How Do I Met The Wolf?
(While i'm still feeling the moon)

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I met one wolf in my lonely night longing for the moon.

I'm drifting in the swift of the river with my hands open, wish i could feel my clair de lune

But this one wolf followed me for long enough, sees me with his glare,

i knew he sees me as his prey.

He pulled me to the edge with his paw

He ripped my shirt with his claw

By that time i knew i'd better be drown.

He was the beast, but i'm the one who get into the pound

Unconcious, i think i'm dreaming in deep.

He kiss me in the neck then my lips.

He is so hungry, He can not stop.

And I am so empty..., I can not stop.

Imagine myself flying against gravity. All that I can feel is the kiss of the moon.

It reaches me by its moonbeam, and whisper ''i'll see u soon''

I'm awake being sad,

Not because the wolf is already full and gonna leave me dead

I always sad when im awake,

When my dream is over, the moon is gone and it always leaves me ache

I am wolf favorites prey i guess

Because the wolf doesn't leave me dead.

But he embrace me instead,

While his fang is grinning behind my back

I am in between hollow and lust

Wanting to go but i'm trap in the moon past

Lonely heart, gloomy soul

I shall stay and make him howl.

-myclairdelune-

''Baby, Are You There?''

''Baby, Are You There?''
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On the rooftop at my house, i was lying on his thigh and enjoying our quality time

the weather was nice that day. The cloud was swimming in the very blue sky. So pretty.

‘’and so do you’’, he said

 

I remember that time, he smiled at me while playing my hair. That’s the sweetest smile i ‘ve ever seen. And for the love of god creatures, his brown eyes always got me stunned.

‘’where do  u see yourself in 10 years from now?’’ i asked him randomly

He looked up trying to catch vision. ‘’hmmm probably wake up with u in my bed,and... hmm morning sex?’’ he replied and rising his eyebrow in attempt to try his luck. I get up from his thigh and pinched his arm really hard. He always knows how to annoyed me. That's silly of him.

 

‘’ouc babe hurtt!  but seriously, i see myself wake up with u in my bed, make love with u in the morning,then prepare my suitcase while u cooking me breakfast, and everyday before i go to work i always have to kiss u on the forehead..’’ he said it in one line without catching a breath. It’s kinda funny tho to made him imagining things like that but he made me blush anyway.

‘’and what would i do when u go to work? I must be lonely’’ i asked him sadly

He looked at me smiling and started to touch my cheeks

‘’Take your time babygirl, do whatever makes u happy. I dont want to put you in the cage. You are really free to fly baby, but makes sure to comback to me. I want you to wait for me... in our little home and  in everynight i’m gonna kiss your lips under the stars.’’ he said that like he knew what he was doing. He gave me hope. Hope to have each other for a long time. His words made me wanna dive in him deeper and deeper.

I remember i closed my eyes trying to feel his touch. It gave me shiver all over my neck. And as soon as i open my eyes, i find myself lying on the rooftop still but it’s not the very blue sky with clouds that i see, it’s the sky with so many stars, so pretty.

‘’and so do you’’, i whispered softly, head up to the sky searching for the moon. Hope that he can feel me somehow. 
Reminiscing, always feels trembling. But he wants me to wait for him. I sit still on the same spot when we have our first kiss just in case he find himself hard to find me.

So tell me now baby are you there? Because i cannot see you everywhere,  it’s just me, the stars and the dust.If it’s not today, i’ll stay everyday. I really miss the warmth of yours. I feel so empty everynight waiting for your embrace. I am so fucking lost i dont know where else to go. So Everynight i go up into my rooftop just to wait for his kiss. A Goodnight kiss from the moon.

-myclairdelune-